So I have two pretty large things to write about..so hang in there, faithful readers...ha..haha..
Alright first off...I don't think that boys know how much girls think about things that they say sometimes. I am going through this right now. A guy said something to me, and I just really don't know how to take it at all. I'm just so confused about it. I can't really elaborate on what he said, but I'm just so confused. The thing is, I know that I shouldn't spend so much time thinking about it. I get so easily distracted by boys...it's a problem for me. So I keep reading this verse in 1 Corinthians: "An unmarried woman or virgin is concerned about the Lord's affairs: Her aim is to be devoted to the Lord in both body and spirit." I should be devoted to the Lord in both body and spirit. I shouldn't spend time thinking about boys so much. But that is so much easier said than done. But this thing that he said just is boggling my mind. He was so vague..and I just don't know. So confused. I need to put it aside though. Just forget about it.
Second, I think I'm being convicted of something lately. Last night I went to Mel Trotter to see some of my friends from CTI play. I had dressed up a little bit because earlier that day I went out for lunch with my piano teacher. So I got there and they were singing, and I felt so just wrong. I was so aware of how I was dressed. I have too many things. It really bothers me. These people that I was with do not have near as much as me. It's gotten to the point where I feel guilty about it. Especially when I was packing my things to move back home from college. I need to do something. I think I need to give it away. But I want to make sure that I don't waste it or anything. I have to figure out a way. But I just don't think I can handle having all this stuff. When I have a lot of stuff, I fall into the trap of wanting more. It was really hard for me to be at Mel Trotter. I felt like I couldn't truly worship God the way I was. With my nice clothes on. I felt like such a hypocrite. God calls us to clothe the poor, feed the hungry, take care of the needy. And there I stood with my Fossil purse. Ugh. It just really bothers me. I don't exactly know what I'm going to do, but I need to do something.
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