I am a sad girl. I don't even want to think about leaving my friends for 3 months. I am so blessed to know them. It makes me sad to think I won't see them for the next 3 months, and probably won't get much time to talk to them. I guess it's just 3 months...but it seems like such a long time. I don't know what I'm going to do.
On top of that, I'm terrified to be a camp counselor. I feel like I'm really bad at dealing with people younger than me. I feel really awkward about it. I don't think I'm that great of a leader. I don't know if I'll get along with the other camp counselors. Quite frankly, I don't even feel like making friends with them, because then I'll get close with them and have to leave them. I'm just so down right now. All this unknown is looming ahead. I want to be able to show my girls the love of Christ. I want them to understand the Gospel. I want to share my excitement for Christ with them. I want God to move in their hearts. I'm so scared that I'll fail.
God, please lift me up. I'm so discouraged. I need you.
-C
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